Stability

I read in my chemistry book that an atom with either negative or positive charge isn`t stable, the ideal is to be like noble gases, which have full outer shells.

Stability.

Recalculating…

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That´s what my brain says every time I think about being emotionally stable. I get mocked even by my thoughts now…incredible.

I am used to having those days when I feel in the mood for having tons of positive charge…which means basically that everything is hit by rays of sun, rain eventually stops, you are what you want to be, and all of those quotes you share on Facebook and everybody likes them thinking, I will be more positive! 

Life is amazing! Until they realize, life is hard, and it is definitely not summarized by a Facebook picture. There are obviously days in which I am charged with negatively..This goes on like this: who cares, I am just one in 8 billion people, or maybe I will never succeed at all, I will live under a constant rainy day, my head is London – like.

Now the question is…do we need stability? When I think of this term I connect it with two words: Boring and structured. I did try to be stable, balance my emotions, not getting my hopes too high, that sorts of things boring people who don’t believe in themselves or live inside of a box do. Definitely I am not one of them, but still I don’t do too well with my emotions…so it is confusing. I live inside a bubble. When I have different attitudes my bubble changes shape. It isn’t solid, as any bubble, so in conclusion, thoughts and opinions can penetrate through and get my bubble can either get bigger, smaller or eventually explode because I can’t do anything from inside since it is very fragile and can easily explode, so in general terms if I collapse of opinions I explode. Metaphoric, right? My mind and my bubble are sometimes too complicated; maybe the chemistry introduction helps if you are more of a logic or rational person. I am like an abstract painting…you will never understand me; you can take guesses but you´ll never know certainly what sort of person I am. I don’t even understand myself, so I find no point in others trying to understand me.

Whatever, the point is that I have to study chemistry but I am too depressed to do so.

I WANT TO BE A NOBLE GAS.

PLEASE!

By: Lucia Miri Echavarria